decisions

Before I get started, I just wanna say I've noticed how frequently I've been posting. I will most definitely not post this often all the time, I just have alot on my mind and I want to get it out there.

Decisions are defined as "a determination arrived at after consideration".

When I was younger these decisions were so much easier. "What ice cream flavor do you want?" "What video game do you want to buy?" "What instrument do you want to play?" "What would you like to do today?" Seeing as the question was simple, I was able to make a decision and stick behind it. I never thought twice about my choice and I had little regrets.

It's obvious to me why I feel bogged down with all these things. When I receive harder problems, I take longer to decide. I feel that I'm still thinking about problems I came up with answers to ages ago. I have no way of changing the outcome, but yet I still wonder if I made the right decision.

My way for deciding is simple. I gather any and all information I can. Then I look at every side of the problem and I try not to miss a single possible outcome of each action. This seemed to work. With everything kept in mind, how could things go wrong?

I understand that this is impossible now. I'm starting to retrieve less and less information as each problem arrises. Since they're coming more frequently now, I have less of my mind to spend on each problem. Now I feel like all I do is worry.

I need to try and break myself of this habit. If I simply go with my gut on each decision I should be fine. If I can tell myself there was no way I could have seen that outcome, then why should I worry?

I bring this up because my friends have noticed that I have been acting strange. They tell me it looks like I have something on my mind. Once I can rid myself of this habit, then I can go back to normal.

One can only hope. I need some time to think.

"Live right now.Yeah, just be yourself.It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else." The Middle by Jimmy eats World